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Lesbian Definition

I am lesbian for a variety of reasons, which has brought my life through a variety of seasons, most cold like Chicago winters (pre-coming out), most hot like Arizona summers (post-coming out), cold, like how I felt after my mother told me I was no longer her daughter; hot, like how I felt when my first female lover gently kissed my lips with passion, burning like Vesuvius; cold, like how I feel towards men when I visit dying married women suffering from AIDS related complications acquired from adulterous soiled sheet nights by their “loyal” husbands; hot, like how I feel when insensitive men request trios after knowing my sexual orientation, cheap compliments yielding cheap conversation, confusing sensuality with erotica, the creation of emotional bonds with the pursuit of S & M, the spelling my name with a CAPITAL “B” after I said “No” to weak advances, not because I was offended by his cheap cologne or his inability to hold a five minute conversation, but because I’m lesbian.

I am lesbian for a variety of reasons, but the most important is because I chose not to believe I chose to be…

I am lesbian for a variety of reasons, however, the least important (too most people) is because I was born lesbian; accept it or reject it…

I am lesbian for a variety of reasons, the most meaningful is because I accepted it and with it validated love for myself, understand how to relate to the world and why it is important for me to be myself; because I, myself am lesbian…