Culpability

Good News?

Your voice different this morning,
ante meridiem greetings equaling distant sighs, sulks,
joyful disappointment
atonement moments passing slow, aging
anger raging at self, magnified
pink EPT rest on bathroom sink,
fresh urine never smelled better,
consider circumstances,
sterility assumed forsaken, lost along with jubilation,
dreams of five course meal wedding receptions,
white picket fences and you,
all gone,
glimpse into a future without newly forming child,
frightening, enlightening in knowing a womb is a safe place to pay homage to life a rye,
African or Taiwanese name selection processes yet to come,
protection wearing afterthoughts reminiscent
of when I was yet to cum,
not struggling, running from reality,
legs wrapped, tugged hair,
nightly screams temporarily removing fallacy
of imaginary world we created for ourselves,
oddities shelved,
replaced with sweat adventures,
tight skirt lures, midnight maneuvers priceless until now,
you are pregnant with my first child,
how,
will I tell my wife…